I'm born in a loving family, as the youngest of three children and I look back on a happy childhood. But, there has always been a specific place that I unconsciously assumed within our family, and this I apply to every group I'm part of. To always be 'the sunshine', so also in our family, as long as I took care of everyone around me I was satisfied without ever thinking about it myself, but subconsciously I had to fill 'an emptiness'. I did not put any boundaries and was afraid to take up real space. Before I had a miscarriage I had no idea where this came from.

 

After a broken heart that lasted for years I came down with a diagnosis of fibromyalgia (joint pain and extreme tiredness) I ended up in bed for several months, unable to do anything. Visited doctor after doctor, started therapies and tried everything. However, nothing helped. Until the day I canceled every appointment at the hospital, threw al my medication in the bin, changed my diet and lifestyle completely and started reading about health, this went on day and night. It helped. When also my psychic skills came back during this same time, which I have hidden away since I was a child, I knew I had to do something with this, I started the Eclectic Energetic Naturopathy course and felt I was on the right track.

 

I moved to Myanmar (Burma) for love, learned a lot and started working there as a therapist and yoga teacher.

 

Things were going well, really well actually, until I had a miscarriage a few years ago, we lost our baby, something I couldn't ignore and felt more painful than any other pain I'd ever felt before. I knew right away it happened for a reason. Because I knew I came into the womb of my mother just after a miscarriage had taken place there, and my mother had exactly the same with her mother. For me, an obvious vicious circle that I took responsibility for breaking it for my future children and my grandchildren.

 
I healed myself, through my new study (Pre And Perinatal Educator PPNE at The Prenatal and Perinatal Psychology and Health APPPAH), and the missing piece to my puzzle fell into place, this is what I want to do for the rest of my life.